The Color Of His Love...

She worried about her red nail polish which had chipped while opening the can of diet coke. Her nails gleamed brightly matching the cherry tomatoes in her low cal salad. But her mood wasn't as bright as she stared at the guy her parents had chosen for her, a perfect astrological match, heir to millions.
She had found the love of her life early in her 20's, perfect in every way except that he earned less than her father; way less. She had been told ever since that marriages were not built on infatuations and fantasies of romance but on solid foundations of financial stability and equal status. She had given in eventually after all her parents had always thought the best for her and break ups happened around her everyday.
But right now listening to the strange voice she yearned for something more familiar. And mostly she hoped her parents were right and the color of his love would fade away like the color of her nails. And she would be find a new way to repaint them with new colors.

Is Intelligence Really More Than "Brain-Deep"?

They say beauty is more than skin deep, then it must be true that intelligence is more than "brain-deep"?

For most of my life I judged people by their intelligence level (mind you not the marks obtained in exams by cramming pages of tuition notes) but genuinely smart people and thought they were better than the rest and me better than the rest of the shallow people who judged people by their looks. But if you are wiling to learn, life has its own ways of showing you the way and I realized no matter how good looking, smart, rich or famous you are the people most important to you and the people you cannot live without are people who you love because of what they feel in their heart for you. It's the warmth, the compassion, the kindness and the connections you feel from the person which charms you forever, not the looks, not the brains and not even the money.

Then indeed if beauty lies in how beautiful your heart is, then intelligence must be related to your heart as well. It would be difficult to imagine a happy, heartless human and what intelligence lies in leading unhappy, frustrated lives. If all that everyone wants is happiness and satisfaction and escape from suffering in life, then having a highly analytical brain, legs like a supermodel etc can be of little help most of the time. I am no genius, heart, brain or even skin wise but I believe that the answers to these eternal questions does really lie within.

Our 20's shall indeed be spent chasing after a lot of things, money, education, career, love, marriage etc but I hope we shall make some decisions at least which will be more than "skin or brain-deep".

Can You Tell Black From White?

        I miss the days when I could tell black from white and life came in these many shades, when I could differentiate lies from the truth & right from the wrong. Now life & people seem to come in so many shades you can hardly tell what color it is, like the swirling colors of oil spilled on water it all seems different when seen in a different light. The only litmus test left is the what you feel in your heart and that gets tougher to read day by day.

     They say in the stories, you must listen to your heart to win the game of life. But all I see around me is intelligent, educated people listening to their fears and insecurity. They want to bribe fate into letting them win this game only no one is sure anymore what victory is or what's the prize.

     Life now always seems to come with a catch. It's mostly kind to me giving me what I want only to show me loopholes I never thought of. Then it asks me again and again, "Is it worth it? Really? Are you sure?"
The thing is I am not and never will be; all I know is that I rather fail at things I really love, knowing that I gave it my 100% but it was never meant to be than succeed at things I don't & make my life a living hell no amount of money will be able to buy me out of.

I will try and live the life I truly believe in and hopefully be able to tell you how it turned out. I can try and insure you from the risks then but in life playing safe can sometimes be the riskiest.